So I trained today, it was pretty fun. Then I ate at Wendy's, yum.

I've been thinking. You love someone when you care more about their well being than your own, right? Well Peter says he "loves" me, but obviously he doesn't care so much what he does to me. I mean he's happy, because I "make him happy" but what about me? I mean, how happy can I be being the other girl? And he's fucking up my chances of having a normal relationship with anyone else because all I think about is him. So what about my own well being? I'm sure his intentions might be good. Like he says he intends to have a real relationship with me eventually, but seriously, I can't stick around forever.

There is the cuuuuutest guy in Tae Kwon Do (in moncton), too bad he lives so far. Because I totally have a little crush on him. He's got the cutest little goofy smile, how can I not just love the guy!? I don't think he ever stops smiling! And, his parents are moving away very soon and he doesn't want to, so he's saving up to buy his own place. He's buying a duplex I guess, so he's working two jobs to save up. Cute and hard working?! Ahh! He did drop out of school though, but he can always go back and get his GED right!? 

"I just wanna bring you down in the worst way"

Ahhh. What do I do to myself? How on earth do I get in the craziest situations!? Peter; married. Joe; junkie. Liam;...what was wrong with Liam?? Too nice? Seriously. I guess I must like the idiots, in some weird effed up way.

Went to see Failure to Launch; cute movie. Night of fights tomorrow night, knocking some bitch out haha. Yessss. Just kidding, I don't intend on knocking a bitch out. But hey, if it happens, it happens. 

So Joe called tonight and I was out. Wonder what he wanted. And I don't feel like picking up if Peter calls, because he was with his girlfriend today I believe. Ouch. The other night he says to me "we don't even like each other, i dont know why me and my girlfriend are still together." I wish I understood. But hey, I get props for being understanding to him. Yay, how fucking exciting. Oh, but on the lighter side, he is adorable. He told me he was saving his loonies and toonies for my present, whatever that is. I loved it. It makes me smile. He is not hurting for money in the least, and he is saving his loonies and toonies. <3. Sweetie.

Jeremy is finally speaking to me again. I would never want a relationship with him, but he is cute sometimes. But really, no job, no money, no license=no girlfriend. Although if he wasn't such a whiney baby I might like him more. Wow do I ever sound pleasant?

OH! And I made choc. chip cookies (with splenda and whole wheat flour hah). And I ate way too many. And I feel like a fat ass.

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Go ahead and look away
Act like everything's okay
Ignore my tears, I understand
Kill me as you take her hand

You know that boy, You can never -
gett outta your head? The one that `*
seems to relate EVERYTHiNG you
do Every song, every word? The one
that at the mention of his name, your
entire face LiGHTS UP? The one that
has full capacity to break your heart??
YEAHH -- THATS Y0U <3

the worst thing about being lied to is
knowing youre not worth the truth

The only thing between me and total happiness is reality